It's 4:18 AM and I should be asleep. But here I am, wide awake typing away into an empty notepad. I don't know what it is. Last night too, I was up tossing and turning till around the same time now, and I couldn't sleep at all. It could be that this week, even though so far it's just 2 days into it, I have been busy putting out fires at work. I am so focused at extinguishing them, that the only free time my mind has to wander an infinite amount of thoughts is at night, when I am the most relaxed.
Things to do, mental checklists, accomplishments - personal and work, apartment hunts, thoughts of family back home, of family here; friends, upcoming events, travel & trips - and planning for them, expectations - set of me, and whether I am living up to them, untold wishes that I am hoping come true, endless scenarios and so on. See, it is super easy for me to get distracted. Any one thought can, and probably will, open doors to yet five or six more, and those into some more in a cascading effect.
Another thing that I don't seem to understand is that I get hungry, really hungry in the middle of the night - when my mind is battling this conscious cerebration. My diet isn't the best, but my eating schedules are fine. For instance, yesterday for lunch, I had a somewhat heavy meal at Humperdinks, and then in the evening at around 8PM, I had yet another heavy meal for dinner. But still, at 2AM in the morning, my stomach growled, and that called for a stroll to the pantry, and I ended up having a bowl of cereal with milk. Then today, it was a Chik-fil-A chicken sandwich combo for lunch, tuscany chicken pasta for dinner, and yet about 20 minutes ago, I chowed down on a butter sandwich and still sipping my Coke. I have no idea why my brain thinks I am missing out on food. Perhaps, it could be that I am skipping breakfast. Whatever it may be, I did finally fall asleep last night at around 4AM, and woke up at 8AM today.
Since I just got 4 hours to my credit last night, I thought I could seriously crash after dinner today, and I did, at around 11:30P, but for some reason woke up at 1AM, tossed and turned to get back to sleep, and couldn't. Stomach growled, and as I mentioned, I made a sandwich, and now I am just wide awake. I figure, I can update the blog with some random talk.
September's here. You know what that means? Sick month! Sometime every September I get really sick and feverish. I know it's coming. The weather has already started to change around here. It was cloudy and breezy yesterday, as it was today. Co-workers have started their runs to their Docs and Allergists. I am feeling the precursor too. A litte weak, tired and fatigued. Although that could be because of the lack of sleep ("Geez Sachin - you think?!"). Hey, as long as it doesn't happen around Christmas and New Years', I am fine with September sickness.
I mentioned in my last post about being here 10 years now. While I am still debating a "special" write-up on that, I have realized that I have changed a lot over time. Ten years ago, I was somewhat naive, gullible, nice, but nice in a doormat kind of way. I don't regret saying that now that things have changed the last few years or so. I mean I am still an easy going guy and as I see it, likable to others (hopefully), and love to strike meaningful conversations with anybody and everybody. You'll probably always see me goofing around and being silly, and most of all, optimistic. Having said that, I do put my needs first. When I know what I want (or need), I am going for it regardless of result. I am usually pretty direct in my conversations and most important of all - I have learned to say NO. It's actually pretty easy, and I should have started that a while back. Does this make me sound mean? Not really. But who said you can judge? ... See how it works. Anyhoos, moving on...
Fall TV Line up I am looking forward to: Heroes, The Office, SNL Thursdays (capitalizing on elections), Knight Rider, Scrubs final season, Terminator: Sarah Connor Chronicles.
September movies I'd like to watch: Bangkok Dangerous, Burn After Reading, Righteous Kill, Eagle Eye, 12 (Russian, English subtitles), Choke.
I just got done with The Bourne Legacy audio book - Loved it!
Book I am now reading: The Bancroft Strategy.
Books I want to read: The Bourne Sanction, Audacity of Hope, Step On a Crack
Ok, it's 4:38AM now, so I am going to attempt to hit the sack. Hopefully I wake up on time for work. Call me, will you? Please? :)
Good night; Or Good morning rather.
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Published on 9/4/08 at 4:38 AM.Things to do, mental checklists, accomplishments - personal and work, apartment hunts, thoughts of family back home, of family here; friends, upcoming events, travel & trips - and planning for them, expectations - set of me, and whether I am living up to them, untold wishes that I am hoping come true, endless scenarios and so on. See, it is super easy for me to get distracted. Any one thought can, and probably will, open doors to yet five or six more, and those into some more in a cascading effect.
Another thing that I don't seem to understand is that I get hungry, really hungry in the middle of the night - when my mind is battling this conscious cerebration. My diet isn't the best, but my eating schedules are fine. For instance, yesterday for lunch, I had a somewhat heavy meal at Humperdinks, and then in the evening at around 8PM, I had yet another heavy meal for dinner. But still, at 2AM in the morning, my stomach growled, and that called for a stroll to the pantry, and I ended up having a bowl of cereal with milk. Then today, it was a Chik-fil-A chicken sandwich combo for lunch, tuscany chicken pasta for dinner, and yet about 20 minutes ago, I chowed down on a butter sandwich and still sipping my Coke. I have no idea why my brain thinks I am missing out on food. Perhaps, it could be that I am skipping breakfast. Whatever it may be, I did finally fall asleep last night at around 4AM, and woke up at 8AM today.
Since I just got 4 hours to my credit last night, I thought I could seriously crash after dinner today, and I did, at around 11:30P, but for some reason woke up at 1AM, tossed and turned to get back to sleep, and couldn't. Stomach growled, and as I mentioned, I made a sandwich, and now I am just wide awake. I figure, I can update the blog with some random talk.
September's here. You know what that means? Sick month! Sometime every September I get really sick and feverish. I know it's coming. The weather has already started to change around here. It was cloudy and breezy yesterday, as it was today. Co-workers have started their runs to their Docs and Allergists. I am feeling the precursor too. A litte weak, tired and fatigued. Although that could be because of the lack of sleep ("Geez Sachin - you think?!"). Hey, as long as it doesn't happen around Christmas and New Years', I am fine with September sickness.
I mentioned in my last post about being here 10 years now. While I am still debating a "special" write-up on that, I have realized that I have changed a lot over time. Ten years ago, I was somewhat naive, gullible, nice, but nice in a doormat kind of way. I don't regret saying that now that things have changed the last few years or so. I mean I am still an easy going guy and as I see it, likable to others (hopefully), and love to strike meaningful conversations with anybody and everybody. You'll probably always see me goofing around and being silly, and most of all, optimistic. Having said that, I do put my needs first. When I know what I want (or need), I am going for it regardless of result. I am usually pretty direct in my conversations and most important of all - I have learned to say NO. It's actually pretty easy, and I should have started that a while back. Does this make me sound mean? Not really. But who said you can judge? ... See how it works. Anyhoos, moving on...
Fall TV Line up I am looking forward to: Heroes, The Office, SNL Thursdays (capitalizing on elections), Knight Rider, Scrubs final season, Terminator: Sarah Connor Chronicles.
September movies I'd like to watch: Bangkok Dangerous, Burn After Reading, Righteous Kill, Eagle Eye, 12 (Russian, English subtitles), Choke.
I just got done with The Bourne Legacy audio book - Loved it!
Book I am now reading: The Bancroft Strategy.
Books I want to read: The Bourne Sanction, Audacity of Hope, Step On a Crack
Ok, it's 4:38AM now, so I am going to attempt to hit the sack. Hopefully I wake up on time for work. Call me, will you? Please? :)
Good night; Or Good morning rather.
Man. Your sister's been having the same problems sleeping too. What is wrong with the both of you?
going to lunch, going to comment on the rest later. :)
You need to EAT YOUR BREAKFAST!!! Eat something with fiber, something good and meaningful. A good breakfast will help you eat better during the day.
On another note, you write really well at 4:30am, I am impressed. At 4:30am, if I am woken up, I will not be responsible for my actions :)
Next time try a warm glass of milk and go back to sleep. Try it.
@ Paresh - No idea. How does she handle it? Also, you were saying...
@ Piki - It's hard to stop and munch breakfast, because I don't have to be at work until 10am, so I wake up at like, 8:45, and leave 9:15. By the time I am at work, it's lunch time 2 hours later. So I just do lunch and that's it. I will take up on your advice abt warm milk next time I can't sleep, or hungry in the middle of the night. Also, thanks for the compliment. I do wonder now what you would write at 4:30AM in the morning. That would be fun! :)
I agree with what the other person said...you need to eat a good breakfast, lunch, and dinner....and try to eat dinner before 8pm. The food gives you energy, therefore, making you unable to sleep. And you need to stop eating four hours before bed. I always get into bed about 9:30pm...read a little, watch an episode of Friends (or whatever's on) and drink some DECAF tea. And by 10:30pm I'm fast asleep. Sleep is a very important part of your health...it's when your body restores itself. I know you don't have to be to work until 10am but still eat something...like a ceral bar or something on the drive to the office.